This week marks the 26th week since we left Ethiopia, since we have been able to hold and love on our kiddos. 26 weeks of waiting for a the paperwork to be processed so we can bring them home.
We have been enlightened over the past several weeks of the "new" processes in which our case falls into, and we are tracking carefully to see what is next and what we need to be praying for to happen in Ethiopia.
It is so complicated, and most of the time I feel like unless I am talking to someone who is engulfed in the world of Ethiopian Adoption, I sound like this "wahwahwhahhawhaha". We have basically given this new process a 14 step breakout processes and as of yesterday we are on step number 7.
God has been teaching me so much through all of this, I thought I had learned patience, and I think I have. But what I guess I had not learned was that these kids, or Jake or Carter or Noah are not my own. They are God's children given to me for a short period of time, to be used by God to help mold and shape them into the people God has carved for them in the future, to assist them in impacting their worlds for Christ. And in our home or not in our home, they are God's children. I am learning trust now. Trust in the God that brought our two Ethiopian babies to us and trust in a God who is holding them close while we can not.
"The Journey is the Reward"..... something I am being constantly reminded of....
Throughout my life, God has taken me on many journeys. Some private, some public. Some that have brought me closer to Him and some that have pushed me and I chose to walk away from Him. The Journey's God has given me, to grow me, to shape me have actually been more rewarding than the actual end of the specific journey.
When I found myself to be a single Mom, with a 6 week old, I was sure that I had reached the end of what I could handle in my young life. After having lost three amazing, precious babies back to my Lord... I was finally able to hold and love my son and I was all the sudden going through a divorce. I am thankful that this journey brought me back to the Lord. It taught me to lean on the strength of my Savior, on the family and friends that God placed in my life. This journey has given me the ability to become part of who I am today. I love deeply and with my whole heart. I take my relationships with my family and friends with a seriousness that sometimes freaks people out. I am loyal to the end. That journey of my life brought many rewards.
I am on another journey, and I am excited for the what God is doing in my life... and what those rewards will be when this part of the journey is complete. Who knows what the next journey will be? Who knows what I will learn or how I will be stretched? God does. And I bet He is as excited for it as I am. =)
We have been enlightened over the past several weeks of the "new" processes in which our case falls into, and we are tracking carefully to see what is next and what we need to be praying for to happen in Ethiopia.
It is so complicated, and most of the time I feel like unless I am talking to someone who is engulfed in the world of Ethiopian Adoption, I sound like this "wahwahwhahhawhaha". We have basically given this new process a 14 step breakout processes and as of yesterday we are on step number 7.
God has been teaching me so much through all of this, I thought I had learned patience, and I think I have. But what I guess I had not learned was that these kids, or Jake or Carter or Noah are not my own. They are God's children given to me for a short period of time, to be used by God to help mold and shape them into the people God has carved for them in the future, to assist them in impacting their worlds for Christ. And in our home or not in our home, they are God's children. I am learning trust now. Trust in the God that brought our two Ethiopian babies to us and trust in a God who is holding them close while we can not.
"The Journey is the Reward"..... something I am being constantly reminded of....
Throughout my life, God has taken me on many journeys. Some private, some public. Some that have brought me closer to Him and some that have pushed me and I chose to walk away from Him. The Journey's God has given me, to grow me, to shape me have actually been more rewarding than the actual end of the specific journey.
When I found myself to be a single Mom, with a 6 week old, I was sure that I had reached the end of what I could handle in my young life. After having lost three amazing, precious babies back to my Lord... I was finally able to hold and love my son and I was all the sudden going through a divorce. I am thankful that this journey brought me back to the Lord. It taught me to lean on the strength of my Savior, on the family and friends that God placed in my life. This journey has given me the ability to become part of who I am today. I love deeply and with my whole heart. I take my relationships with my family and friends with a seriousness that sometimes freaks people out. I am loyal to the end. That journey of my life brought many rewards.
I am on another journey, and I am excited for the what God is doing in my life... and what those rewards will be when this part of the journey is complete. Who knows what the next journey will be? Who knows what I will learn or how I will be stretched? God does. And I bet He is as excited for it as I am. =)
I love you and am so glad that God rewarded us with friendship on this journey. Your strength is beautiful, my friend, keep learning and trusting in HIM :)
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